I say this not as self-derision but a statement of fact regarding the physical space I take up in this world. It's more than the average woman.
I'm fat, yo.
As such, I've struggled with self-image over the years.
Two things have helped me come to grips with my self-image: the fat positivity movement, and art.
I like painting and drawing fat bodies. I like being able to see a drawing or painting I've made of a fat body moving, or dancing, or merely existing without shame, and feeling like I've created something beautiful.
In turn, I feel a bit better about the body I inhabit. That it has beauty as well. (There's a guy I share my heart and home with.. he tells me it does. A lot. But I don't always believe him).
This is not a self-portrait, merely a celebration of body type that I share.
I call her 'Abundance'.
|Acrylic on 10x12 wood panel|
Reagan said she looks like Ariel. I think she's got some Melisandre in her as well (Gord knows, she likes being naked).